Blah, Blah, Blah…..that is what today was! From the time I woke up to now things have just been Blah! Sometimes I get a head of myself and try to be so organized and it just doesn't work out. The good news is the day is almost over. This afternoon we were headed to Raelynn's KSHSC Kick Off and I made the comment that this was just a yuck day and I was in a blah mood which Raelynn responded, "Which translates to we get yelled at more!" I laughed and asked her when they ever get "yelled" at? She said, "Ok, well it might not be "yelling" but you get the idea!" She was right, I definitely ride them harder on blah days. Even though it was a blah day, we still had many laughs. We went to Kohl's to try to get Raelynn some black pants for show season. While Raelynn and I were checking the price of something Coop was finding his own entertainment. I hear Raelynn say, "Oh geez, MoooooM!" I turned around and there was Raelynn cracking up and Cooper rubbing a very padded bra in the lingerie department. I started to laugh and couldn't stop. I laughed so hard I was crying hard! So there was Coop with the bras and me squatted down in the isle trying not to wet my pants. This is when Raelynn takes the role of the parent. She is standing just far enough away we could still hear her but you wouldn't know if she was with us or not. All I hear her saying is, "Really you guys, get it together, this is embarrassing! Mom stand up, Coop quit rubbing the boobs!" This did not help me at all, the more she scolded us the harder I laughed. Finally Coop stopped and I at least got past the point I was going to pee my pants and we continued our shopping. Now I must say, a good laugh was much needed and it was definitely a good one!!!
On a much more serious note, do you find yourself in a situation and wonder if your parents felt the same? Earlier this week we had some loud thunderstorms come through about 3:30am. The thunder was super loud and it didn't take long before Coop was in bed between Terry and I. One more loud thunder and I heard Raelynn call for me. I got up and went in her room and crawled in beside her. I snuggled with her and we talked about how loud it was and how it spooked us and within minutes she was asleep. I started to climb out of bed but she rolled over and asked me to stay. As I lay there, wide awake, I thought about how I was no more capable of protecting her from the thunder or lightening than she was of protecting herself. I thought back to how when I was a kid I thought my parents could protect me from anything but now that I am the parent I wonder what gives me that power and did they really have that power then. It was just a weird thought, my kids think we are their protector but we really have the same fears they do. It is amazing how we can look so "big" to them and if only they knew how much we feared and how much we questioned ourselves, would they look at us the same way? I suppose they wouldn't but we'll never know because as parents we are "big" to them and all knowing and in control and that is what gives them confidence and trust and is so crucial in their development. Last night I watched BoyZ N the Hood. It kept me from sleeping all night. It was horrible but I couldn't get my mind to stop thinking about those kids and how they grew up and why. Why didn't their parents move out of that neighborhood? Why didn't their parent's see what their lifestyle was doing to their kids? Why was that one cop so mean? There was so many questions I had and I am sure that show has been studied in a few sociology classes but it just left me sad. It also left me feeling privileged to live where I live and have the environment I do to raise my kids in. We are so blessed yet still find things to whine about or stress about or being frustrated with. The move made me feel ashamed for some of the luxuries I have and also thankful for some of the luxuries I have. Mostly it made me sad that generation after generation the same trends continue and the violence worsens and that this actually happens in the real world and I am so sheltered I do not see it and I am so scared I never look for it. I am thankful for my family and the privileges we have and I am thankful that I can recognize them and just hope that I can let me children see them as well and understand that there are those with more privileges and those with less but regardless, our riches are in our love, education and in God.
I was able to meet my good friends new baby on Thursday and he is adorable. I get so excited to watch my friends welcome new ones into their family because I know the excitement they feel and how that will stay with them forever! Children are without a doubt the greatest gift anyone could ever receive. Their son had a few struggles but is on his way to recovery and I am so relieved and happy for them. I can't wait until they realize that the love they feel now will only get stronger!
A look back over the past week or so……..
|Raelynn is making bracelets to raise money for CCF! Our great friend, Belinda, designed the charms!|
|Raelynn nominated her teacher, Mrs. Bailey, for the Hy-Vee High Five and won!|
|Raelynn and Jackie after Jackie's Gymnastics competition.|
|Coop's artwork displayed at Hy-Vee|
|Raelynn's first riding lesson of the season.|
|Coop entertains himself why RL rides!|