COOPER IS IN SURGERY AGAIN....

Cooper entered into surgery at about 12:10pm. He did not go willingly though. Everyone was there; doctors, nurses, respiratory therapist, anesthesiologist, everyone getting Coop ready to transport to surgery when all the sudden his blood pressure and heart rate sky rocketed. I stepped out of the way and several others stepped up to see what was going on. The tears started again. They assume he got a bolster of heparin that was just sitting in the line and when they moved it, it rushed into his veins. They determined he would be fine and his stats began to return to normal. Everyone is so kind. Of course we are seeing the same people so they give us hugs and promise to take good care of him. They are so wonderful but still this is not getting any easier. In fact it seems to be getting harder and harder. I feel like I could throw up any minute and I do everything to keep from crying. He has to get better soon! Terry struggles too. I look at him and tears sit in his eyes as well. I knew people have been through much more than we have but I have no idea how.

Well they just came in and gave us an update....Cooper is doing great. They have had him off the ECMO for about 10 minutes and he looks great. They think they are going to leave him off but they need to watch for a little longer. All we can do is cry. We were/are so nervous for him. He is such a fighter but things have been rough for him. Maybe I can start thinking about the day I can hold him again. I know, I know one day at a time, one step at a time.

I read yesterday the following and it seems so appropriate and I just keep trying to remind myself of it.

"Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass; it is about learning to dance in the rain”