PINK EVEN AFTER A BATH??????

Last night I think Coop's heart fix finally hit me. He was able to take a bath last night for the first time since his surgery. Coop loves his bathes and he had been asking to take one since we returned home. So last night I gave him a little extra water and a little extra time to play. When it was finally time to get out, I dried him off, brushed his hair and teeth and took him to his room to get his PJ's on. I laid him on the changing table, grabbed his PJ's and as I turned back around to him, my breath was taken away. As I looked at Coop's smiling face all I could see were these incredibly bright pink lips and soft pink skin. I began to cry. In the 2 1/2 years I have spent staring at his adorable face I have never seen pink lips and skin, especially after a bath. His lips are always blue and skin always dusky. I did not even realize how blueish he always has been until I saw him in that moment. Coop's smile disappeared and he said, "Why you cry Mommy?" I began to laugh and told him I was crying because I loved him sooooo much. He looked very confused but I quickly wiped away the tears and continued the smiling and laughing and it did not take long for his smile to return too. If I could have held that moment just a little longer, I would have. I felt for the first time like we had Cooper and there was not this tugging feeling of wondering "but for how long?". As I look at him this morning, watching cartoons and seeing him glance at me with a smile wondering why I am staring at him, I know, finally, Cooper is ours and the next minutes, days, years will be cherished more than he will ever understand.